...alone once again (T_T)...

....new entry lg, hr nie x taw nak tulis apa sebenar nya..coz there nothing 2 story about,... td pg i have exam, dh la x blh nak tdo mlm td n than pg td prg exam dgn mata yg mengantok n kepala yg pening..rs nak pengsan ja td, dh la sejuk hr hujan mdi pun mcm mdi kambing ja td..hahaha... smpai ja dewan exam, trs blur lps buka kertas exam lg a blur..hahaha.. blh d kira dlm ms 3 jam exam aku guna 1 jam ja tk jawab ms yg selebihnya aku dok termenung ja..hahaha, xda idea doe coz otak x berfungsi sgt2 td..hahaha...:D

...hmm, nak crt pa bout my bf hr nie owh, i thinks nothing la.. aku x taw nak ckp pa dh skrg, sekarang dh boleh d katakan km 2 jrg bermsg.. kalo bermsg pun blh d kira berapa byk x smpai 2o msg pun 1 hari.. sy x taw la nak buat pa..skrg nie dia asyik tdo sj, dr pg smpai mlm asyik tdo ja.. sy dh sgt kcw with him rite now, dia ckp nak berubah tp x jg tp mkn menjd perangai dia.. sydh jrg nak mrh dia skrg nie, tp dia sgt2 menguji kesabran sy, tp sy kena bersabar jgi cannot surrender awal sgt.. rs nak nanges ja skrg nie.. tp sy x blh nak buat apa lg.. kecewa mmg kecewa tp pa blh buat dh dia sendiri xnak berubah..

.. dat it for now, tgh kecewa skrg nie, so xda idea sgt nak menulis..nanite all, xoxo..:'(

...hanyut...

..title blog mlm nie hanyut.. ten2 tertanya-tanya y hanyut??? well lets me explain la.. tjuk nie sempena lagu faizal tahir hanyut.. lirik dia sgt2 indah n sy betul2 d hanyut perasaan bila dgr lg nie.. td sy tgok crt ahmad durrah at tv3, dr c2 la sy dgr lg hanyut nie, pas 2 sy google la..hik2..dpt jg akhir nya lirik n mp3 dia.. lets me share with u guys lirik dia k..

Lirik Hanyut – Faizal Tahir

Harus bagaimana lagi
Dan terus begini
Dengarkan aku
Lihat ke mataku

Cukup sudah kau menghukum
Salahku tetap salahku
Benarkan ku berbicara
Agar bisa pulih semua

Namun harus sampai bila
Kau kan diam seribu bahasa

Chorus
Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Fahamilah ku tak mampu terus tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Saat mata terpejam
Hanya kau ku terbayang
Menghapus semua segala rasa di jiwaku

Saat mata terbuka
Kamulah yang pertama
Tak mampu aku
Bayangkan
Hidup tanpa dirimu

Ulang Chorus

Aku memang bersalah
Selalu saja mengabaikan mu
Dan tapi dah ku sedari
Segala perit kau lalui
Ku terlupa kau terluka

Dan memang selalu
Aku bersalah
Selalu saja mengabaikan mu
Meninggalkan mu
Dan tetapi itulah aku sedari
Segala perit yang kau lalui
Kerna diriku yang terus hanyut

Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila kau tak di sisi
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

..well,lepas ja sy tgok lirik nlg nie, sy betul2 jth cinta.. n dis songs i dedicated 2 my syg..i really2 love him n i cant live without him... that all 4 2nite...nanite all..xoxo...

...macam-macam ada...

....tengok ja tajuk mesti dh taw yg sy akan byk bercerita hr nie..hik2, yup dat rite.. nak mula dr yg mana dulu ya, hmm pa kt sy mulakan dr awal hr nie smpai la d saat sy tulis entry br tk my blog nie k...

1. ..my sayang..

hari nie my syg bgn awal doe, hahaha..pas 2 dia mrh sy sebab sy bgn lambat dr dia, hello sy tdo pkl 3 pg la, mmg ptt pun bgn lambat..haha, tp xla lmbat sgt dlm pkl 1 petang mcm 2 sy bgn td..huhu, my syg marah betul dgn sy, dia ckp sy x boleh bgn tdo lewat dr pk 12, kalo x dia akan merajuk dgn sy..ada plak mcm 2 kan.. dia boleh plak bgn lmbat smpai pkl 10 mlm..mana adil kan2.. hmm, x byk yg nak sy crt pasal my syg hr nie, km 2 x msg sgt bah..n msg last dia tdpun pkl 2 petang pas 2 dia hilang n hnya petang td sy dpt menjejaki dia..i2 pun dia ckp dia nak bbq with his lil sis, tp smpai skrg dia hilang mesti dia sdh mabuk smpai x sedar dh dgn dunia.. comfirm2 dia tgh terbugkang tdo n keluar air liur basi tdo..hahaha..comel...:))\,biar la dia 2...better sy stdy n date with MR agro lg best kan2...:)

2. .. surprise n unpredictable..

nie crt yg best, dn agak mengejutkan jg la.. akhir nya miss R(my huzmate) berterus terang jg dgn km whose the guy yg selalu msg dgn dia.. yg mengejutkan that guy was not Malaysian tp dia Pakistani.. owh GOD, ini br d katakan kalo ada jodoh mmg xkan kemana.. hanya melalui sekali pertemuan both of them bermsg n now, something special happen..hik2.. fall in love myb..hahaha.. but miss R menafikan nya, dia still love his bf bah.. but the guy mr O seem 2 b really fall in love with her..hik2... nanti lm2 betul2 jatuh cinta la kedua nya.. n i cant imagine mcm mana agak nya kalo famili c Miss R nie taw.. hmmm, we wait n c la..hik2... kalo km 1 rmh nie boleh terkejut apa tah lg famili dia..hik2..

..... love is very unpredictable things, it can happend anytime, with anyone, and at any place.....

.... that all la, nak smbg stdy kejap.. td stop 4 a while sebab nak tulis blog nie, tkt nanti terlupa plak.. daaa..xoxo...

jeance annellezze

....headache....

.... wah, almost 1 am already, x terasa betul kan ms berlalu.. dr td sy asyik bc buku text agro based marketing... x terasa betul smpai kepala sy nie betul2 skit.. need 2 take rest 4 a while if not my head will be painful until 2morrow la nampak nya... i donno y, but when i read the text book i can feel that the subject is not dat hard, y am i did not realize it early ( haha, stdy last minit mana x nya) if not i lama dh date with dat MR Agro..hahaha...

nie la buku agro yg aku bc dr td..hehehe..

... hari nie, nothing special happend antara sy n bf sy.. juz td sy google la kat internet n then i found a quota said :

.....that was quota yg sy bg kepada dia, it really show what i feel for him.. coz d saat 1st time sy bg taw dia sy syg n love dia sy betul2 nyatakan nya.. there are not a habit like what the quota said rite, but after i gave it to him, nampak nya like what i tough dia x faham mksd nya n ask me y am i sent such kind of msg 2 him, n then i ask him to read n undrestand the meaning, dia selumber ja ckp mls la coz too long.. sy pun apa lg trs x reply msg dia, sy trs senyap n my tears drops.. i cry coz sy kecewa sgt that he don understand wat am i want 2 deliver to him.. i cry n cry, hbs bsh buka text agro sy..hik2...

....but i noe, x guna sy nanges n fkrkan sgt bnda 2, after a while, sy baik semula n anggap ja nothing happened but inside my heart i can feel d pain.. dh la dia reply msg pun 10 sekali, smpai 1 tahap kepala sy dh betul2 pening sy ckp kat dia that if he bz than there no need to texting each other, n i said gudnite... ingatkan sy trs xnak msg dia dh, tp hati ppuan nie sgt2 lembut, b4 i write this post sy kol dia sekejap n dia ckp dia tertidor coz mengantok sgt2.. i ask him 2 go 2 sleep la,..hmm, td minta dia kizz, tp malu2 plak coz dia punya kwn ada kat c2..hahaha.. tp dia kiss jg, wlau pun ckit tp xpa la..:))

...at some point td, i dh fkr negetive bout him.. tp pas 2 sy yakin kan dr sy yg nothing negative gonna happen, i hope so... i really love him n i really cant imagine if i have to leave or he leave me.. i love u so2 much ronstan nelian anthony...

..that it for 2nite, my kepala nie sdh rs nak pecah, skt sgt2... morning all..xoxo

jeance annellezze

..love u so much syg...

..love bring us together as one..

always be my baby...

We were as one babe

For a moment in time

And it seemed everlasting

That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free

So I'm letting you fly

Cause I know in my heart babe

Our love will never die

No!

You'll always be a part of me

I'm a part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no

And I won't beg you to stay

If you're determined to leave girl

I will not stand in your way

But inevitably you'll be back again

Cause ya know in your heart babe

Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl

When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh

I know that, you'll be right back, babe

Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be apart of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby

jeance annellezze

..once again, im alone..

...malam nie sekali lg sy sendirian, mula2 buat sy sdh tp lm2 sy dh terbiasa bila sy dh d buat mcm nie, apa blh buat sy terpaksa jg terima what he gave 2 me rite, sy dh xnak byk ckp coz bila sy byk ckp nanti km 2 akan gaduh2, kalo dh gaduh lg la susah nak berbaik semla, so skrg sy rs sy ptt diam dr sj n pretend nothing happened, anggap ja dia xda kdt tk reply msg sy n anggap ja skrg nie dia d kampung n x da line hp d kpg dia...

...sunyi betul bah sy skrg nie, sy x taw nak mengadu dekat siapa.. i feel sgt2 sunyi sekrg nie, kdg2 sy rs ada bf pun mcm xda bf, sy asyik bersendirian.. sgt2 bertuah kalo ada ppuan d dunia ini ada bf yg mengambil berat with wat everything their done, but as for me plak kdg2 when sy da mslh sy akan selesaikan sendiri, xda org pun yg akan menjadi tempat sy meluahkan mslh sy.. feel alone sgt sy bila sy da mslh, br sj sy nak nercerita with bf sy tn2 dia x ada.. akhir nya sy kena selesaikan sendiri mslh sy...

sometime, bila sy bg taw dia something at first dia akan ingat lama2 dia dh x ingat dh.. n lg 1, mungkin hub km 2 dh mkn pudar.. ya la kan mkn lama bercouple mkn hilang la serinya especially kalo dua2 x nak memberi nafas br pd hub tersebut.. i reall tired bila sy yg lebih ceriakan hub km 2 tp dia mcm buat biasa sj, seolah-olah it is not important dlm soal menceriakan kembali hub km 2.. it really sad u noe, n i tetap jg bersabar coz one day i hope dat everything gonna b alrite...

sdh pkl 1 pg nie, dia x jg msg2 sy.. sy x taw nak buat apa dh.. nak msg pun hp off, kol dr td voice mail.. owh GOD, i hope dat nothing going wrong, i really don wan 2 thinks negative about him, plizz jauhkan bnda2 negative dr hub km 2.. coz i really afraid of losing him, but looks like he not afraid of losing me...

..mkn lama sy dh mkn x fhm perangai dia, i really don understand.. mungkin bg dia bermsg selalu 2 x penting n bg sy bnda 2 sgt2 pntg, bg dia ckp la km 2 slg ingat 1 sm lain, n love each other.. bg dia i2 sdh ckp but 4 me its not enough.. lgpun km 2 berjauhan kalo dekat xpa la jg boleh selalu jumpa.. but we 2 far from each other n pntg sgt tk km 2 sentiasa berhub so dat both of us wont forget each other..

..now, i will learn 2 b patient n tabah, even it hurt i will try to face it.. feel wanna cry rite now, my tears already drops.. i thinks dat it 4 now, nanite..xoxo..

..jeance annellezze..

....after 1 year ....

... lepas setahun becouple byk bnda berlaku antara km berdua, either bad n good. tp byk lg yg bad dr good. hmm, x taw la mna silap n salah km 2, asyik gaduh sj sy dgn dia.. smpai 1 tahap km 2 meninggikan suara ke ats 1 sm lain.

...mungkin betul kata org, mkn lama hub i2 mkn tersela la perngai msg2, yup sy mengakui kebenaran nya... each day ada sj bnda br yg sy taw pasal perangai dia, begitu jg dia. semalam km 2 gaduh lg, kali nie dia mrh sy sebab sy nie sk betul menyindir dia.. sy x taw la, mungkin betul jg pa yg dia ckp sy nie kuat btl menyindir dia. tp sy menyindir bnda yg betul not that sy fitnah dia or watever yg x elok, i just wan him 2 noe wat am i feel at dat time, sy apa lg sy ckp la yg he doesnt understand each word yg sy ckp.. lagi la dia melenting bila sy ckp mcm 2.. n then sy pun start la menanges n dia pun start la mrh2 sy.. i told him yg sy akan berhenti marah2 dgn dia n sy akan mengalah tp dia xnak jg..(plik kan)......

..after berbincang, we both take a decision yg km 2 akan berubah for both of us, sebab terlalu sygkan hub ini km berdua sm2 berjanji akan mengubah perangai yg msg2 x suka.. sy akan stop bercakap bhs sindiran(bhs bunga2 la) n dia akan try ubah cr bercakap( bhs bunga2 la..)..hehe... hopefully segala akan bertambah baik la after this, i juz 2 afraid of losing him... i realy wan our relationship back 2 normal like what we had in the first... i really don wan it 2 change even a little bit...

... syg, if u read what baby write, bby just want syg 2 know dat bby really love syg.. bby afraid of losing syg, syg we have gone trough lots of things 2gether n bby really want to keep our relationship as far as we can, bby really want to b by u side always syg.. lastly, bby just wanna say that bby really love syg from d first time we couple untill know..love u ronstan nelian...


..that it for 2day..kalo da pa2 lg nanti sy 2lis lg k..dada..
jeance annellezze 300788..