..i want 2 b u only girl syg..

I want you to love me, like I'm a hot guy

Keep thinkin' of me, doin' what you like

So boy forget about the world cuz it's gon' be me and you tonight

I wanna make your bed for ya, then imma make you swallow your pride

Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world

Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love

Like I'm the only one who knows your heart

Only girl in the world...

Like I'm the only one that's in command

Cuz I'm the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man

Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world

Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love

Like I'm the only one who knows your heart

Only one...

Want you to take me like a thief in the night

Hold me like a pillow, make me feel right

Baby I'll tell you all my secrets that I'm keepin', you can come inside

And when you enter, you ain't leavin', be my prisoner for the night

Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world

Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love

Like I'm the only one who knows your heart

Only girl in the world...

Like I'm the only one that's in command

Cuz I'm the only one who understands, like I'm the only one who knows your heart, only one...

Take me for a ride

Oh baby, take me high

Let me make you first

Oh make it last all night

Take me for a ride

Oh baby, take me high

Let me make you first

Make it last all night

Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world

Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love

Like I'm the only one who knows your heart

Only girl in the world...

Like I'm the only one that's in command

Cuz I'm the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man

Only girl in the world...

Girl in the world...

Only girl in the world...

Girl in the world...

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are [Official Video]

...dedicated this song for my sayang Ronstan Nelian Anthony...

Oh her eyes, her eyes

Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
Bruno Mars Just The Way You Are lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/bruno-mars-just-the-way-you-are-lyrics.html

And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Nickelback - Far Away

..GADUH N GADUH N GADUH LAGI..

..12/11/2010..

..OWH GOD, HARI NIE KM 2 GADUH BESAR LAMA DH X GADUH SEBESAR NIE..HARI NIE NAK ULANG BALIK LA KENANGAN GADUH BESAR-BESARAN YANG BERLAKU AWAL2 KM 2 COUPLE DULU.. DAMN IT, SAKIT BETUL HATI AKU SEKARANG NIE, INGATKAN DIA DAH BERUBAH BUT DIA BUAT BALIK PERANGAI LAMA DIA 2..GRRRR...

..NAK D JADIKAN CERITA, I REALLY SAD SEBENARNYA TENGOK POST2 MY FRIENDS AT FACEBOOK SEMUA NYA EXCITED NAK BALIK KAMPUNG, BUT FOR ME I DH LA X BALIK KPG N HAVE 2 STAY AT SHAH ALAM UNTIL NEXT YEAR BALIK X BALIK PUN SY DLM BLN MAY 2011.. BYGKAN BETAPA SEDIH NYA SY..MY HUZMATE DH ADA YG BALIK HARI RAYA HARI 2 SO MEREKA X LA RASA RINDU WIF FAMILI DIAORG SEBAB DH JUMPA KAN HR 2.. TP SY MANA DA BALIK SO DAT Y LA SY AGAK EMOCKIT MLM NIE...

..SO I TOLH HIM DAT I FEEL SO LONELY N MISS MY FAMILY MEMBERS SO MUCH, N HE SAID I HAVE TO BE PATIENT, YA I NOE MCM MANA PUN SY KENA SABAR JUGA KAN.. LEPAS I2 SY AJAK DIA YM SEBAB SY MAW TGOK MUKA DIA, TP DIA XNAK COZ DIA PUNYA LAPTOP BR JA FORMAT DAT Y DIA XNAK INSTALL YM DULU TKT VIRUS MASUK.. BUT SY NIE PLAK JENIS YG X SABAR N SY SJJA NAK UJI DIA SY BUAT LA MUKA KESIAN DGN HARAPAN DIA AKAN MENGALAH.. TP STILL JUGA DIA DGN PENDIRIAN NYA.. SY XNAK KALAH JUGA NIE, LEPAS 2 SY CKP MYB U LOVE UR LAPTOP MORE THAN ME, N THEN HE TOLD ME DAT TOMORROW I WILL HEARD D NEW ABOUT HIS LAPTOP.. BILA JA DIA CKP MCM 2 I DH AGAK DH DIA AKAN BUAT SOMETHING PADA LAPTOP DIA..

..THEN, I CALL HIM.. OWH MY GOD, HE BROKE HIS LAPTOP JUZ BECOZ SY BANDINGKANDR WIF THE LAPTOP..WTH, I BECAME SO ANGRY WIF HIM N I SHOUT AT HIM.. GRR, SMPAI SEKRG SY MSH GERAM NIE.. I DONNO WAT 2 SAY ANYMORE.. MAKIN SY MARAH DIA PUN SM JG.. LOOK LIKE NO ONE OF US NAK MENGALAH...

..SY RS BERSALAH SEBENARNYA, I SHOULD NOT CKP MCM 2 DEKAT DIA KAN.. BUT I X DPT NAK CONTROL MY SELF LA.. SO SKRG NIE SY X TAW NAK BUAT APA, NAK MENGALAH SEMESTINYA TIDAK... BIAR LA, SY XNAK KALAH DGN DIA.. DIA SUKA A TGOK LAPTOP DIA HANCUR SO WAT.. SY DH XNAK KISAH DH.. I HATE DAT WHEN HE DONE DAT THING, ORG MESTI AKAN SALAH KAN SY, BECOZ KALAU BUKAN SEBAB SY DIA XKAN BUAT BNDA 2 KAN.. TP I NEVER FORCE HIM 2 DO DAT, OWH GOD..I FEEL REALLY GUILTY RITE NOW..

...BIAR KAN LA KEADAAN MCM NIE DULU, IT IS MUCH BETTER.. BIAR LA MSG2 MENYENDIRI DULU.. BUT SY BETUL2 MEMAKSUDKAN KATA2 SY TD KALO PERANGAI PANAS BARAN DIA X BERUBAH SY BETUL2 X BOLEH HIDUP DENGAN DIA.. COZ I WILL NEVER KNOW WAT GONNA HAPPEN 2 ME IF WE HAVE MUCH GREATER FIGHT..

...OWH GOD, SAYA BERDOA KEPADA KAMU SUPAYA KAMU PERTAHAN KAN HUBUNGAN KAMI BERDUA, N BUATKAN LA PERASAAN PANAS BARAN DI DLM DIRI DIA HILANG DAN TUHAN KAMU JADIKAN LAH SAYA SEORANG YANG LEBIH PENYABAR..KERANA SESUNGGUH NYA SY SGT2 MENYAYANGI DIA DAN BERHARAP AGAR KASIH SYG KM BERDUA KEKAL SELAMANYA..SAYA BERDOA DALAM NAMA AYAH,ANAK,ROH KUDUS..AMEN..

..12/11/2010..

..OWH GOD, HARI NIE KM 2 GADUH BESAR LAMA DH X GADUH SEBESAR NIE..HARI NIE NAK ULANG BALIK LA KENANGAN GADUH BESAR-BESARAN YANG BERLAKU AWAL2 KM 2 COUPLE DULU.. DAMN IT, SAKIT BETUL HATI AKU SEKARANG NIE, INGATKAN DIA DAH BERUBAH BUT DIA BUAT BALIK PERANGAI LAMA DIA 2..GRRRR...

..NAK D JADIKAN CERITA, I REALLY SAD SEBENARNYA TENGOK POST2 MY FRIENDS AT FACEBOOK SEMUA NYA EXCITED NAK BALIK KAMPUNG, BUT FOR ME I DH LA X BALIK KPG N HAVE 2 STAY AT SHAH ALAM UNTIL NEXT YEAR BALIK X BALIK PUN SY DLM BLN MAY 2011.. BYGKAN BETAPA SEDIH NYA SY..MY HUZMATE DH ADA YG BALIK HARI RAYA HARI 2 SO MEREKA X LA RASA RINDU WIF FAMILI DIAORG SEBAB DH JUMPA KAN HR 2.. TP SY MANA DA BALIK SO DAT Y LA SY AGAK EMOCKIT MLM NIE...

..SO I TOLH HIM DAT I FEEL SO LONELY N MISS MY FAMILY MEMBERS SO MUCH, N HE SAID I HAVE TO BE PATIENT, YA I NOE MCM MANA PUN SY KENA SABAR JUGA KAN.. LEPAS I2 SY AJAK DIA YM SEBAB SY MAW TGOK MUKA DIA, TP DIA XNAK COZ DIA PUNYA LAPTOP BR JA FORMAT DAT Y DIA XNAK INSTALL YM DULU TKT VIRUS MASUK.. BUT SY NIE PLAK JENIS YG X SABAR N SY SJJA NAK UJI DIA SY BUAT LA MUKA KESIAN DGN HARAPAN DIA AKAN MENGALAH.. TP STILL JUGA DIA DGN PENDIRIAN NYA.. SY XNAK KALAH JUGA NIE, LEPAS 2 SY CKP MYB U LOVE UR LAPTOP MORE THAN ME, N THEN HE TOLD ME DAT TOMORROW I WILL HEARD D NEW ABOUT HIS LAPTOP.. BILA JA DIA CKP MCM 2 I DH AGAK DH DIA AKAN BUAT SOMETHING PADA LAPTOP DIA..

..THEN, I CALL HIM.. OWH MY GOD, HE BROKE HIS LAPTOP JUZ BECOZ SY BANDINGKANDR WIF THE LAPTOP..WTH, I BECAME SO ANGRY WIF HIM N I SHOUT AT HIM.. GRR, SMPAI SEKRG SY MSH GERAM NIE.. I DONNO WAT 2 SAY ANYMORE.. MAKIN SY MARAH DIA PUN SM JG.. LOOK LIKE NO ONE OF US NAK MENGALAH...

..SY RS BERSALAH SEBENARNYA, I SHOULD NOT CKP MCM 2 DEKAT DIA KAN.. BUT I X DPT NAK CONTROL MY SELF LA.. SO SKRG NIE SY X TAW NAK BUAT APA, NAK MENGALAH SEMESTINYA TIDAK... BIAR LA, SY XNAK KALAH DGN DIA.. DIA SUKA A TGOK LAPTOP DIA HANCUR SO WAT.. SY DH XNAK KISAH DH.. I HATE DAT WHEN HE DONE DAT THING, ORG MESTI AKAN SALAH KAN SY, BECOZ KALAU BUKAN SEBAB SY DIA XKAN BUAT BNDA 2 KAN.. TP I NEVER FORCE HIM 2 DO DAT, OWH GOD..I FEEL REALLY GUILTY RITE NOW..

...BIAR KAN LA KEADAAN MCM NIE DULU, IT IS MUCH BETTER.. BIAR LA MSG2 MENYENDIRI DULU.. BUT SY BETUL2 MEMAKSUDKAN KATA2 SY TD KALO PERANGAI PANAS BARAN DIA X BERUBAH SY BETUL2 X BOLEH HIDUP DENGAN DIA.. COZ I WILL NEVER KNOW WAT GONNA HAPPEN 2 ME IF WE HAVE MUCH GREATER FIGHT..

...OWH GOD, SAYA BERDOA KEPADA KAMU SUPAYA KAMU PERTAHAN KAN HUBUNGAN KAMI BERDUA, N BUATKAN LA PERASAAN PANAS BARAN DI DLM DIRI DIA HILANG DAN TUHAN KAMU JADIKAN LAH SAYA SEORANG YANG LEBIH PENYABAR..KERANA SESUNGGUH NYA SY SGT2 MENYAYANGI DIA DAN BERHARAP AGAR KASIH SYG KM BERDUA KEKAL SELAMANYA..SAYA BERDOA DALAM NAMA AYAH,ANAK,ROH KUDUS..AMEN..

JEANCE LOVE RONS

..I LOVE U SAYANG 4 EVER..

..1 years,2 month,1 week n 4 days..

..tarikh 28 august 2009 telah mengubah segala nya dlm hidup sy..

..he come in my life n bring new light n shine in my dull n dark life..

..Ronstan Nelian Anthony Dunggau,he was d man dat open my heart once again 2 fall in love..

..kehadiran nya amat2 sy hargai sehingga ke hr inie..

..dia telah mengembalikan keyakinan dn kepercayaan sy kepada cinta..

..dia telah membawa sinar hidup br kepada dr sy yg ketika itu di dlm kegelapan..

..mencari-cari cinta sejati yg sy fkr sy x akan dapat..

..d saat sy perlukan teman ketika itu lah Dia hadir dn menghulurkan tangan kepada sy..

..Dia telah membawa sy keluar dr kegelapan yg membuat sy menutup mata,telinga dan hati sy..

..ketika i2 br sy sedari ada sinar d depan sy yg akan membuatkan sy melupakan kegelapan yg selama in sy lalui bersendirian..

..tnpa diri nya, mugkin sy sampai sekrg akan meraba-raba d dlm kegelapan malam..

..mungkin sy xkan berjumpa lelaki sebaik dia..

..lelaki yang menerima sy seadanya..

..lelaki yang jujur dan ikhlas mencintai sy dan menerima segala kekurangan sy..

..Dia adalah utusan Tuhan yang akan membimbing sy selamanya..

..Dia lah yang akan menjadi pelindung dan penyelamat sy di dunia ini..

..Dia lah lelaki yg akan sy cintai smpai akhir hayat sy..

..Dia lah segala nya bagi sy..

..sy bersyukur kepada Tuhan kerana telah menyatukan sy dengan Dia kerana hanya dia dn akan hanya dia berada dn bertaktha di hati sy..

.. Tarikh 28 august 2009 telah membawa 1 sinar d dalam hidup sy kerana d tarikh i2 lah sy telah menjadi kekasih dn teman wanita kepada Ronstan Nelian..

..sekarang sudah 1 tahun, 2 bulan, 1 minggu dn 4 hr km bersama..

..dn cinta sy pada dia tetap sm dn mkn bertambah dr hari ke hari..

..saya mencintai dia sepenuh hati sy..

"maafkan lah ku x bisa hidup tanpa kamu...

fahami lah ku x mampu terus tnpa kamu

bagiamana ku nanti

bila tiada menganti

yang ku mahu hanya kamu sahaja.."

..Ronstan Nelian, sy Jeanita Gelang mencintai kamu sepenuh hati sy..

..i love u so much syg, bby need syg in my life..

..love u forever n ever syg..

..that all 4 tonite,xoxo..nanite..

..kecewa nya sy....

i wish u know what is my feeling right now, when u said that u suspicious on me, that was the day my heart stop for a second, n my tears drop fast. i donno wat 2 think at that time, i trust him with all my heart n y did he don trust me d way i trust on him. owh GOD, i really love him, pliz make him believe that i really love him n he was the only thing that i wanted so badly in this world. i never feel dis kind of feeling toward other man before, i don noe y is he so special n so different with the other guys that i have meet. he is just to different, even though we always argue about small thing but it made my love for him stronger n stronger. i love him damm much n wheb he suspected me it make my heart hurt damm much 2.

my tears keep falling down rite now, i'm really sad rite now, i can even think of anything else than think that he have think negative about me.

i pray 2 d LORD so that everything gonna be alrite.

syg, bby love syg so much a..syg is the only thing dat i want..love u syg from yesterday,today, tomorrow n for d rest of my life syg..

that all 4 2nite just love the person u love sincerely n stop thingking lots of negetive thing toward them that it, nanite all..xoxo..

...alone once again (T_T)...

....new entry lg, hr nie x taw nak tulis apa sebenar nya..coz there nothing 2 story about,... td pg i have exam, dh la x blh nak tdo mlm td n than pg td prg exam dgn mata yg mengantok n kepala yg pening..rs nak pengsan ja td, dh la sejuk hr hujan mdi pun mcm mdi kambing ja td..hahaha... smpai ja dewan exam, trs blur lps buka kertas exam lg a blur..hahaha.. blh d kira dlm ms 3 jam exam aku guna 1 jam ja tk jawab ms yg selebihnya aku dok termenung ja..hahaha, xda idea doe coz otak x berfungsi sgt2 td..hahaha...:D

...hmm, nak crt pa bout my bf hr nie owh, i thinks nothing la.. aku x taw nak ckp pa dh skrg, sekarang dh boleh d katakan km 2 jrg bermsg.. kalo bermsg pun blh d kira berapa byk x smpai 2o msg pun 1 hari.. sy x taw la nak buat pa..skrg nie dia asyik tdo sj, dr pg smpai mlm asyik tdo ja.. sy dh sgt kcw with him rite now, dia ckp nak berubah tp x jg tp mkn menjd perangai dia.. sydh jrg nak mrh dia skrg nie, tp dia sgt2 menguji kesabran sy, tp sy kena bersabar jgi cannot surrender awal sgt.. rs nak nanges ja skrg nie.. tp sy x blh nak buat apa lg.. kecewa mmg kecewa tp pa blh buat dh dia sendiri xnak berubah..

.. dat it for now, tgh kecewa skrg nie, so xda idea sgt nak menulis..nanite all, xoxo..:'(

...hanyut...

..title blog mlm nie hanyut.. ten2 tertanya-tanya y hanyut??? well lets me explain la.. tjuk nie sempena lagu faizal tahir hanyut.. lirik dia sgt2 indah n sy betul2 d hanyut perasaan bila dgr lg nie.. td sy tgok crt ahmad durrah at tv3, dr c2 la sy dgr lg hanyut nie, pas 2 sy google la..hik2..dpt jg akhir nya lirik n mp3 dia.. lets me share with u guys lirik dia k..

Lirik Hanyut – Faizal Tahir

Harus bagaimana lagi
Dan terus begini
Dengarkan aku
Lihat ke mataku

Cukup sudah kau menghukum
Salahku tetap salahku
Benarkan ku berbicara
Agar bisa pulih semua

Namun harus sampai bila
Kau kan diam seribu bahasa

Chorus
Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Fahamilah ku tak mampu terus tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Saat mata terpejam
Hanya kau ku terbayang
Menghapus semua segala rasa di jiwaku

Saat mata terbuka
Kamulah yang pertama
Tak mampu aku
Bayangkan
Hidup tanpa dirimu

Ulang Chorus

Aku memang bersalah
Selalu saja mengabaikan mu
Dan tapi dah ku sedari
Segala perit kau lalui
Ku terlupa kau terluka

Dan memang selalu
Aku bersalah
Selalu saja mengabaikan mu
Meninggalkan mu
Dan tetapi itulah aku sedari
Segala perit yang kau lalui
Kerna diriku yang terus hanyut

Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila kau tak di sisi
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

..well,lepas ja sy tgok lirik nlg nie, sy betul2 jth cinta.. n dis songs i dedicated 2 my syg..i really2 love him n i cant live without him... that all 4 2nite...nanite all..xoxo...

...macam-macam ada...

....tengok ja tajuk mesti dh taw yg sy akan byk bercerita hr nie..hik2, yup dat rite.. nak mula dr yg mana dulu ya, hmm pa kt sy mulakan dr awal hr nie smpai la d saat sy tulis entry br tk my blog nie k...

1. ..my sayang..

hari nie my syg bgn awal doe, hahaha..pas 2 dia mrh sy sebab sy bgn lambat dr dia, hello sy tdo pkl 3 pg la, mmg ptt pun bgn lambat..haha, tp xla lmbat sgt dlm pkl 1 petang mcm 2 sy bgn td..huhu, my syg marah betul dgn sy, dia ckp sy x boleh bgn tdo lewat dr pk 12, kalo x dia akan merajuk dgn sy..ada plak mcm 2 kan.. dia boleh plak bgn lmbat smpai pkl 10 mlm..mana adil kan2.. hmm, x byk yg nak sy crt pasal my syg hr nie, km 2 x msg sgt bah..n msg last dia tdpun pkl 2 petang pas 2 dia hilang n hnya petang td sy dpt menjejaki dia..i2 pun dia ckp dia nak bbq with his lil sis, tp smpai skrg dia hilang mesti dia sdh mabuk smpai x sedar dh dgn dunia.. comfirm2 dia tgh terbugkang tdo n keluar air liur basi tdo..hahaha..comel...:))\,biar la dia 2...better sy stdy n date with MR agro lg best kan2...:)

2. .. surprise n unpredictable..

nie crt yg best, dn agak mengejutkan jg la.. akhir nya miss R(my huzmate) berterus terang jg dgn km whose the guy yg selalu msg dgn dia.. yg mengejutkan that guy was not Malaysian tp dia Pakistani.. owh GOD, ini br d katakan kalo ada jodoh mmg xkan kemana.. hanya melalui sekali pertemuan both of them bermsg n now, something special happen..hik2.. fall in love myb..hahaha.. but miss R menafikan nya, dia still love his bf bah.. but the guy mr O seem 2 b really fall in love with her..hik2... nanti lm2 betul2 jatuh cinta la kedua nya.. n i cant imagine mcm mana agak nya kalo famili c Miss R nie taw.. hmmm, we wait n c la..hik2... kalo km 1 rmh nie boleh terkejut apa tah lg famili dia..hik2..

..... love is very unpredictable things, it can happend anytime, with anyone, and at any place.....

.... that all la, nak smbg stdy kejap.. td stop 4 a while sebab nak tulis blog nie, tkt nanti terlupa plak.. daaa..xoxo...

jeance annellezze

....headache....

.... wah, almost 1 am already, x terasa betul kan ms berlalu.. dr td sy asyik bc buku text agro based marketing... x terasa betul smpai kepala sy nie betul2 skit.. need 2 take rest 4 a while if not my head will be painful until 2morrow la nampak nya... i donno y, but when i read the text book i can feel that the subject is not dat hard, y am i did not realize it early ( haha, stdy last minit mana x nya) if not i lama dh date with dat MR Agro..hahaha...

nie la buku agro yg aku bc dr td..hehehe..

... hari nie, nothing special happend antara sy n bf sy.. juz td sy google la kat internet n then i found a quota said :

.....that was quota yg sy bg kepada dia, it really show what i feel for him.. coz d saat 1st time sy bg taw dia sy syg n love dia sy betul2 nyatakan nya.. there are not a habit like what the quota said rite, but after i gave it to him, nampak nya like what i tough dia x faham mksd nya n ask me y am i sent such kind of msg 2 him, n then i ask him to read n undrestand the meaning, dia selumber ja ckp mls la coz too long.. sy pun apa lg trs x reply msg dia, sy trs senyap n my tears drops.. i cry coz sy kecewa sgt that he don understand wat am i want 2 deliver to him.. i cry n cry, hbs bsh buka text agro sy..hik2...

....but i noe, x guna sy nanges n fkrkan sgt bnda 2, after a while, sy baik semula n anggap ja nothing happened but inside my heart i can feel d pain.. dh la dia reply msg pun 10 sekali, smpai 1 tahap kepala sy dh betul2 pening sy ckp kat dia that if he bz than there no need to texting each other, n i said gudnite... ingatkan sy trs xnak msg dia dh, tp hati ppuan nie sgt2 lembut, b4 i write this post sy kol dia sekejap n dia ckp dia tertidor coz mengantok sgt2.. i ask him 2 go 2 sleep la,..hmm, td minta dia kizz, tp malu2 plak coz dia punya kwn ada kat c2..hahaha.. tp dia kiss jg, wlau pun ckit tp xpa la..:))

...at some point td, i dh fkr negetive bout him.. tp pas 2 sy yakin kan dr sy yg nothing negative gonna happen, i hope so... i really love him n i really cant imagine if i have to leave or he leave me.. i love u so2 much ronstan nelian anthony...

..that it for 2nite, my kepala nie sdh rs nak pecah, skt sgt2... morning all..xoxo

jeance annellezze

..love u so much syg...

..love bring us together as one..

always be my baby...

We were as one babe

For a moment in time

And it seemed everlasting

That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free

So I'm letting you fly

Cause I know in my heart babe

Our love will never die

No!

You'll always be a part of me

I'm a part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no

And I won't beg you to stay

If you're determined to leave girl

I will not stand in your way

But inevitably you'll be back again

Cause ya know in your heart babe

Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl

When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh

I know that, you'll be right back, babe

Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be apart of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby

jeance annellezze

..once again, im alone..

...malam nie sekali lg sy sendirian, mula2 buat sy sdh tp lm2 sy dh terbiasa bila sy dh d buat mcm nie, apa blh buat sy terpaksa jg terima what he gave 2 me rite, sy dh xnak byk ckp coz bila sy byk ckp nanti km 2 akan gaduh2, kalo dh gaduh lg la susah nak berbaik semla, so skrg sy rs sy ptt diam dr sj n pretend nothing happened, anggap ja dia xda kdt tk reply msg sy n anggap ja skrg nie dia d kampung n x da line hp d kpg dia...

...sunyi betul bah sy skrg nie, sy x taw nak mengadu dekat siapa.. i feel sgt2 sunyi sekrg nie, kdg2 sy rs ada bf pun mcm xda bf, sy asyik bersendirian.. sgt2 bertuah kalo ada ppuan d dunia ini ada bf yg mengambil berat with wat everything their done, but as for me plak kdg2 when sy da mslh sy akan selesaikan sendiri, xda org pun yg akan menjadi tempat sy meluahkan mslh sy.. feel alone sgt sy bila sy da mslh, br sj sy nak nercerita with bf sy tn2 dia x ada.. akhir nya sy kena selesaikan sendiri mslh sy...

sometime, bila sy bg taw dia something at first dia akan ingat lama2 dia dh x ingat dh.. n lg 1, mungkin hub km 2 dh mkn pudar.. ya la kan mkn lama bercouple mkn hilang la serinya especially kalo dua2 x nak memberi nafas br pd hub tersebut.. i reall tired bila sy yg lebih ceriakan hub km 2 tp dia mcm buat biasa sj, seolah-olah it is not important dlm soal menceriakan kembali hub km 2.. it really sad u noe, n i tetap jg bersabar coz one day i hope dat everything gonna b alrite...

sdh pkl 1 pg nie, dia x jg msg2 sy.. sy x taw nak buat apa dh.. nak msg pun hp off, kol dr td voice mail.. owh GOD, i hope dat nothing going wrong, i really don wan 2 thinks negative about him, plizz jauhkan bnda2 negative dr hub km 2.. coz i really afraid of losing him, but looks like he not afraid of losing me...

..mkn lama sy dh mkn x fhm perangai dia, i really don understand.. mungkin bg dia bermsg selalu 2 x penting n bg sy bnda 2 sgt2 pntg, bg dia ckp la km 2 slg ingat 1 sm lain, n love each other.. bg dia i2 sdh ckp but 4 me its not enough.. lgpun km 2 berjauhan kalo dekat xpa la jg boleh selalu jumpa.. but we 2 far from each other n pntg sgt tk km 2 sentiasa berhub so dat both of us wont forget each other..

..now, i will learn 2 b patient n tabah, even it hurt i will try to face it.. feel wanna cry rite now, my tears already drops.. i thinks dat it 4 now, nanite..xoxo..

..jeance annellezze..

....after 1 year ....

... lepas setahun becouple byk bnda berlaku antara km berdua, either bad n good. tp byk lg yg bad dr good. hmm, x taw la mna silap n salah km 2, asyik gaduh sj sy dgn dia.. smpai 1 tahap km 2 meninggikan suara ke ats 1 sm lain.

...mungkin betul kata org, mkn lama hub i2 mkn tersela la perngai msg2, yup sy mengakui kebenaran nya... each day ada sj bnda br yg sy taw pasal perangai dia, begitu jg dia. semalam km 2 gaduh lg, kali nie dia mrh sy sebab sy nie sk betul menyindir dia.. sy x taw la, mungkin betul jg pa yg dia ckp sy nie kuat btl menyindir dia. tp sy menyindir bnda yg betul not that sy fitnah dia or watever yg x elok, i just wan him 2 noe wat am i feel at dat time, sy apa lg sy ckp la yg he doesnt understand each word yg sy ckp.. lagi la dia melenting bila sy ckp mcm 2.. n then sy pun start la menanges n dia pun start la mrh2 sy.. i told him yg sy akan berhenti marah2 dgn dia n sy akan mengalah tp dia xnak jg..(plik kan)......

..after berbincang, we both take a decision yg km 2 akan berubah for both of us, sebab terlalu sygkan hub ini km berdua sm2 berjanji akan mengubah perangai yg msg2 x suka.. sy akan stop bercakap bhs sindiran(bhs bunga2 la) n dia akan try ubah cr bercakap( bhs bunga2 la..)..hehe... hopefully segala akan bertambah baik la after this, i juz 2 afraid of losing him... i realy wan our relationship back 2 normal like what we had in the first... i really don wan it 2 change even a little bit...

... syg, if u read what baby write, bby just want syg 2 know dat bby really love syg.. bby afraid of losing syg, syg we have gone trough lots of things 2gether n bby really want to keep our relationship as far as we can, bby really want to b by u side always syg.. lastly, bby just wanna say that bby really love syg from d first time we couple untill know..love u ronstan nelian...


..that it for 2day..kalo da pa2 lg nanti sy 2lis lg k..dada..
jeance annellezze 300788..

...i'm back...

...lama sudah sy x update blog sy nie, bukan apa sy terlupa password bah..huhu... nampak nya byk bnda yg dh berlaku dlm hdp sy sepanjang sy x update blog nie, kalo nak d cerita kan in on nite rs nya x hbs kot..so sy akan crt ckit2 ja dulu...

... 28 august 2010 adalah my 1st anniversary with my syg, tp kt 2 x dpt maw celebrate sm2, ya la kt 2 berjauhan bah.. tp xpa jnji km 2 still ingat n wish anniversary 2 each other...
...hmm, sy x taw maw 2lis apa lg, sy xda idea nie..nanti la sy 2lis lg..
..nanite,xoxo..muahhh..

am i 2 much with him???

hmm..in dis few day sy n my syg asyik bergaduh sj..entah la sy pun x taw pa sebab km 2 asyik gaduh sj..bkn nya besar pun sebab we hav a fight but tetap jg km 2 berkrisis skrg nie..kejap ja km 2 berbaik yg selebihnya km 2 bergaduh sj..huh..mampu kah km berdua bertahan kalo asyik gaduh sj..

mungkin sy yg agak keterlaluan sm dia bah..
tp sy x jg rs mcm 2..rs nya sy byk sgt2 bersabr sm dia bah..
x taw jg sy..sy x taw sapa d antara km 2 yg bersalah n yg jd mangsa..
kdg2 sy rs sy keterlaluan jg sm dia..tp sy x maw mengalah bah sm dia..
dia pun sm sdh xmaw mengalah lg sm sy..
so kalo dua2 x maw mengalah mcm mana maw dapat penyelesaiannya...
hmm..susah jg kan bila ada komitmen mcm nie...
but i have 2 b responsible bah..later on i wiil get married n i will have 2 face dia c2ation to rite...
so ihave 2 b calm n b cool with all d prob dat happend..
be positive bah jeance..u can do it..hahahaha..

sayang..bby janji bby akan try memahami syg a..
tp syg kena jnji syg akan memahami bby ga a..
syg kena pandai bahagi ms gau bby a..
don be so addicted to GAMES..if not nanti bby akan suruh syg kawin with GAMES a..
br padan muka syg..hahahaha...

that it 4 2nite..XOXO...;p

mampukah sy bertahan...

kenapa sejak 2 menjak ini sy n my syg asyik gaduh sj..
dia sdh x ada ms lg tk sy..x taw sy maw ckap mcm mana..
sdh bah sy bila dia buat sy mcm nie..dia seolah-olah sdh mengabaikan sy..
dia sdh x peduli sm ada sy merajuk atau marah sm dia..
dia buat x peduli sm sy..apa slh sy pada dia???
salah kah kalo dia spend time sedikit dgn sy??
bg dia games adalah penting,..hdp dia lebih lengkap kalo sdh ada game n dia msh boleh hdp tanpa sy tp x sesekali dia blh hdp tanpa games..

maw msg sm dia pun susah sgt sekarg nie..
kdg2 terasa bukan sy yg sdg stdy tp dia..
kesibukan dia mengalahkan sy yg sdg stdy nie,,
sy cuba tk cr ms 2 spend with him,,tp dia seoalh-olah x ambil ksh pun pasal hal mcm 2..
puas sdh sy bersabar sm sikap dia..
x blhka dia berubah demi hub km??
sy try nak jd terbaik bg dia bah..tp dia x pernah maw try jd terbaik buat sy..

kenapa dia lgsg x mahu memahami sy??
kenapa?? why??
mungkin bg dia x pntg tk hbskan ms bersama..tp bg sy bnda i2 yg penting..penting sgt2..
sekarang sy sdh x taw maw buat apa lg..
segala nya bergantung pd jodoh..
sy mcm sdh x berharap lg sm hub ini..
tp sy akan try menyelamatkan hub km 2...
tp kalo hanya sy yg berusaha n dia x apa guna jg kan..
i just pray 2 GOD rite now..coz i really donnno wat 2 do anymore..
i have try but its not working...

really2 don have anymood rite now...
really feel dissapointed with RONSTAN NELIAN ANTHONY rite now..
owh GOD ..i pray 2 u..amen..

ronstan nellian anthony n jeanita gelang singga

me and my syg...

benci nya...............=(

bENCI betul sy hari nie..minggu nie semua bnda x menjadi..asyik2 gaduh with my bf..apa maw jd sm sy n my syg nie..sy x taw la asyik bergaduh kerana bnda2 yg biasa sj..aduh..bila ms la hubungan km 2 maw elok mcm org lain..kenapa km 2 asyik gaduh sj..tension sy...

sy rs sdh sgt2..coz my bf seem 2 not understand me as much as i understand him.. sy x taw maw ck papa lg sekarg..kini blh d kira berapa byk ms yg dia ada utk sy..i cant count how many msg dat his sent to me rite now..kenapa km berdua sdh x mcm dulu lg..kenapa dia seolah-olah sdh jauh berubah sm sy..sy ni terlalu annoying ka?? sy ni terlalu merimaskan dia ka?? sy rs maw nangis sj bila fkr hal mcm nie..sy rs sgt2 menyushakan dia..apa slh sy..adakah sy yg bersalah dlm semua perkara???? sy dh puas mengalah sm dia..apa lg yg dia maw dr sy..sy x TAW lg maw buat apa..

sy telah cuba sedaya upaya sy dlm hub km 2 nie...tp its look like sys j yg beria-ia menjaga hub ine tp dia seolah-olah lps tgn sj..sapa yg x sdh if bf sndr buat x ksh sj sm dia..begitu jg sy..sdh sgt2 sy..
rs maw nangis sj sym lm nie..sdh betul2 sy bah..

bila la sy akan dapat kebahagian sm spt org lain????

16 november 2009

16 november 2009...

dis is d 1st day sy jumpa my love one ronstan nelian anthony..cannot believe it..rs mcm mimpi sj bah..ya la dulu kan kt hanya tak via webcam n chat in yahoo masseger..x pernah pun jumpa face 2 face...

my flight from KL was at 3pm dat day..my time of arriving at miri is 5.30pm...time dalam flight lg sdh rs nerves belum lg maw jumpa dia face 2 face..hehe..time 2 i juz berdoa yg perjalanan sy selamat..dh la cuaca at dat day sgt2 buruk..tkt sgt2 bila dalam flight..but bila teringatkan nak berjumpa my syg perasaan tkt 2 hilang mcm 2 ja..

pada mulanya sy suruh la my syg ambik kat airport but my sis said x manis org lain tgk..so the plan is cancel.. so my big sis n my bro in low yg jemput sy d airport...setiba nya sy d airport miri my sis in law call me asking me sm ada someone jemput sy bah..diaorg maw ambik sy kalo x ada org yg jemput sy..but i say my sis jemput sy... wahhhhh..1st time tgk miri airport rs mcm amazing...akhirnya..hihi..

but d most bnda yg buat sy nerves is the time to met him..wat should i do..so nerves bah..hehe.. i call him n said i already landed at miri..fuhhhh..dia pula x sbr2 maw jumpa sy..but ada halangan yg dia perlu tempuhi b4 can meet me..dat is 2 c my 2 sisters..so terrible rite..hahaha..sampai ja rmh my sis i trs kiss my little niece..wow she was so cute n adorable..(omg..sy xada gmbr my little niece pulak..semua dh terdelete after my laptop broke...nanti la sy upload..hihi)

berbalik pd crt sy n my sayang... hmmmmmm..mcm mana maw mulakan lg erk..mcm nie ja la..sy ckp wif my sis yg my syg nak bw sy keluar kejap dat nite..than my sis ckp
" suruh dia jumpa km dulu..km pun maw tgk dia bah..nak tgk mcm mana rupa lelaki yg maw ajak km keluar.."( lbh krg mcm i2 la..tp dlm bhs iban..sdh lupa jg sy..hihi..) apa lg pas 2 sy trs call my syg..
" sayang..kakak bby maw jumpa syg dulu b4 syg keluar wif bby a..ingat pesan bby k..guna bj yg besar so tattoo syg x akan nampak.." siap bg ingatan lg sy sm dia..tkt nanti becoz of tattoo yg penuh kat badan my syg 2 bah..hehe...sapa suruh dia letak tattoo byk2 kat badan dia..hahaha..


tepat pukul 8.30..sy dh siap mdi tp bm bersiap lg la maw keluar...he call me n ckp dia sdh smpai..aduhhhhhhhh..nerves betul sy time 2..aduh mcm2 sy fkr dlm otak nie..macam mana la rupa dia,pendek ka dia,putih ka or hitam..aduh..nerves betul bah sy...time trn tangga 2 sy mmg sdh fkr mcm2 bah..aduh terlalu berfikir sy..hehehehehe...sampai ja kat bwh sy nampak kereta dia n then sy trs call dia n ckp sy sdh smpai kat bawah..

n then saat2 yg d tunggu telah tiba..jeng2..
1 kaki dia sdh keluar dr kereta,n then dia punya tangan last sekali kepala dia keluar..dat is my syg..
masa berhenti seketika..we both slg berpandangan...tutttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.......

wahhhhh..ten2 semua tertanya tanya how it is feel when we both 1st time see eavh other..sy pun jd kaku bah...dia apatah lg..hehehe..n then sy trs tanya..

" sdh lama ka km smpai??" sy x panggil dia syg spt mana sy panggil dia bah..hehehe..bukan apa still malu n gelabah bah..

" lama jg la km 2 sdh smpai.." dia dtg jumpa sy with his kazen..dia x pandai drive so kazen dia la yg jd mangsa tk jd driver dia..hihihi..

n then sy ajak diaorg naik rmh..hehehe...time nak naik 2 lucu betul..x sy sangka my syg sgt2 la berani..dia terus pegang tangan sy..wahhhhhh..buat sy lg berdebar debar bah syg sy nie..hihihi..( sy menulis kisah nie smbil tersengih sengih..hihihi..)

sesampai nya d hadapan pin2 rmh kakak sy..sy tanya my syg sm da dia sdh ready..dia ckp dgn nada begurau lg..dia sdh ready bah..sy trs buka pintu rmh..jeng2... macam mana agak nya kak sy interview dia org 2 agaknya..hmm..sy pun x tawjg apa yg kakak-kakak sy akn tanya pd dia..then my sis suruh sy prg dapur buat air..sebenar nya kakak sy maw sy buat air coz diaorg amw menanyakan soalan pribadi bah sm sy punya syg...hahahaha..padan muka dia..hihi.. then lps sy buat air sy ajak dia dgn kazen dia minum..n then my syg bkn main lg jeling sy..siap berbisik sm sy lg..

" owh..baby jahat erk..x maw tlg cover syg...." bukan x maw tlg cover syg..tp kak kan maw bercakap personal ja sm syg bah..isk2...

n then d pendek kan cerita my syg trs ckp with sy punya kak yg dia maw ajak sy keluar..sy punya kak pun benarkan tp dgn syarat jgn lmbt sgt balik..hehehe..

1st time kuar with my syg..rsnya lain ja..entah la..hilang kata2 bah sy dgn dia..dia pun sm..km 2 x taw mcm mana maw bercerita..

semalam mlm time sy keluar dgn dia 2..sy diam dr sj..selalu nya sy yg byk ckp tp skrg sy plak yg jd pendiam bah.. dia ajak sy jumpa kwn2 dia n her friends... tp before dat syg sy ajak sy jumpa my mother in law..hehe..n jumpa dia punya lil sis..wah..berdebar-debar jg sy ms 2..hihi..tp nsb baik x lama bah d rmh dia n then km trs keluar..hehe..jalan2 ke EMART...

di pendekkan la crt nya..sy n my syg just dpt jumpa utk beberapa jam sj time 2..x lama ja bah..

time dia hntar sy blk kan..wah dia smpat lg minta sy kiss dia..ish..sy malu bah..mcm mana maw kiss dia depan kazen dia..hehe..tp akhir nya sy kiss jg dia..1st kiss ktorg 2 bah..feel so happy betul sy mlm 2..hihihi...

smpai cni sj la dulu..nanti sy tulis lagi..X0X0X0...